Dreams don't lie: happy fucking valentines day!

Dear readers, nginendaba enkulu namhlanje! (I have big news!) So, in a previous previous post I told you guys about a dream I had about the deejay LOL. Well, well, well, LOL I have to laugh at my situation. Now right after I had woken up, I wrote that post on my phone so later on I can type it into Microsoft word and save it. A few hours later I had seen on twitter that deejay wrote a tweet saying “I LOVE HER” and I told my friend A, and she dug into the investigation and minutes later shows me an insta snap of him surprising “HER” with flowers and a present, etc. I thought the dream was just my mother fucking subconscious little did I know that, that confused face I saw on his face when I asked what the fuck is going on between us in the dream was really the beginning of the truth making its way to me in the real world.

I’m going to be real with you guys, I am fucking human with a heart (who doesn’t), and my first reaction was anger! The fuck bombs that were flying right, left and centre, my friend A even regretted showing me the video but for me I am glad she did but, I get my strength from the doses of reality, from the pain, from the suffering, from the fucking BAD and I build myself stronger, I don’t build no wall, I am a warrior and I deal with things head strong and dead in the mother fucking eye! I am livid with the situation but you know what I ranted and vented to my friends for a good hour and then I continued with my day.

The reason I chose to not dwell any longer in that moment no matter how much it hurt the emotions in me that were still floating around even though we weren’t speaking and there was no spark anymore ( dumb ass fucking heart!), I remembered all my advice and techniques I was sharing to you guys I asked myself, if I had to die right now, would I want to be in this energy or dwelling on this moment, my answer. NO. I can’t be a hypocrite, so I tried looking for the good:

1. Thank you Jesus I didn’t have sex with him, Thank you that I still have my education, thank you that I have friends that did not mind listening to me and thank you for the next day I will get to see tomorrow and can leave this situation in the past!

I AM 100% TAKING MY OWN ADVICE, AND WHAT I AM LEARNING IS, THE HEART MAY BE A FOOL BUT THE GUT AINT NEVER MISS THE BULLSHIT. FOLLOW YOUR GUT AND STICK TO IT!

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