Insecurities

I shaved all my hair off four years ago because I was being cheap and chose a different type of relaxer that burnt my hair line. I had no patience and therefore, OFF WITH THE HAIR. This was a look I was not used too and left me feeling very insecure about my outer beauty. I was really scared of what people might think of me that I even bought a Peruvian wig. For two weeks I wore a head-wrap, and practised different head-wrap styles from watching YouTube tutorials. Fortunately, I got used to being bald, and told myself not to care anymore because I needed to overcome this new look and wear it with confidence so I can see myself as beautiful. Unfortunately, I also bought a wig which I regret, but money was spent, and it shan’t go to waste.

Today, I write on insecurities. Possible insecurities; your weight, people your age are way ahead of your academic/career /engaged/married/ have babies while on the other hand, you deal you’re your inner thoughts and feelings of not being where you thought you would be now, in the different areas of your life. Such thoughts and feelings like can spark a bad friend called ‘insecurity’:

1. A lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt

2. The quality or state of being insecure; instability.

I tackled mine, head on. It was not comfortable at all, but like they say, good things grow in new environments (even though they are uncomfortable). Tackle your insecurities head on, no matter how uncomfortable it will be. You can set your own pace or tactics of how you are going to overcome this monster that makes you look at yourself negatively or doubt yourself. But, remember we don’t allow for anything negative to occupy our minds but only expose ourselves to great things that will build us. I don’t know when you will be able to tackle this monster/ these monsters (I myself am still tackling some that have recently been raised to the surface of my conscious) but, you and I are going to have to face them, and confront them and make a change.

To conclude, change your perception on yourself and on all those insecurities, so the next pair of eyes or words don’t bother the person within. Once you get over that hurdle, I promise it will be a nice feeling. a feeling of no longer caring what people expect from you or think of you and, even from yourself because, you know that you are good within yourself. Trust me on this, I no longer cared in that moment (after 2 weeks of making myself uncomfortable) on who was physically attracted to my baldness, and if I am their definition of beauty, because I know I am happy within myself, and see myself as beautiful. Keep your mind strong and keep your eyes forward, and run your own race.

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